Helen Patterson: My Mammy, Rose Smoak

     Please keep my Mammy in your prayers. She has said enough prayers for others to deserve a flood of them for herself.

     My Mammy is the perfect example of a strong matriarch. She is graceful, demure, caring, bold, and has an unbelievable strength you have to be around to even begin to comprehend. She is a survivor and a loyal person to God, her family, and her friends.
     She survived her new husband going off to war. She became a sister/mother figure to her niece when her sister passed. She helped raised two beautiful daughters with her true love, my grandfather. She survived gallbladder cancer as a mother. She helped to raise a number of grandchildren and grand nieces. She stayed strong in a beautiful marriage for 69 (and still counting) years. A few years ago she even survived being dead for 2 minutes after fluid had built up in her lungs from congestive heart failure. At 90 years old I remember my grandmother out surviving my sister, mother and I on an all day shopping spree....WE had to tell her we were to tired to keep going!
     Recently she has been going blind. I think the hardest think to witness was her discontent with just sitting back and letting us do for her. For so many years, she has done so much for her family from cooking, to giving the best advice, to just living life as a beautiful example to us all. About a week ago we had to call hospice for her. At 94 years old, she made us promise "No more hospitals." As hard as it is to hear that, we all understand and support her %100. Anything else would be selfish.
     All the nurses that come in rave about how much love is around her, and how she is so lucky to be so well cared for by so many family members. What I think they don't understand is that, luck has nothing to do with the love that surrounds her. She built this support system and this love that envelopes her now with every kind word she spoke, every hug she gave, every shoulder she lent for a good cry, every time she provided heart felt advice, among all the other things she has freely given of herself over her 94 years. Naturally, she hasn't stopped providing. I was talking with her the other night about my life and my plans and how I hope to have as good of a life as she made for herself. Her response was wisdom filled and heart felt. She told me "You know when it all started going my way? When I told God that I'll live everyday the best I can and leave all the rest up to him. When you surrender your life to God, he won't let you down."
     I know that experiences, friends, other family members, good times and bad times all shape who we are and who we become everyday. I also know that each person in my family is who he/she is because of who my Mammy is and how she lived each day of her life. Rose Smoak is a blessing and I'm so thankful to be a part of the family that she has been unconditionally dedicated to.

Every summer since my mother was a little girl our extended family rents a beach house on Tybee Island, in Savannah, Georgia for a week. (One of many photos taken over the years capturing that to the left) The family begins with my Mammy, my Pappy, and my Nanna and Granddaddy Jack and extends on out to all of my extended cousins on that side. Nanna and Granddaddy Jack (Bless his soul, I know he's been watching us) are really my cousins...who have been more like a second pair of grandparents. We have a surprisingly close extended family. I call a couple of my cousins Aunt and Uncle because that's how close we all are.

To the right is a picture taken at my Aunt's house of my Aunt Helen, Mammy, Pappy, Me and Stella. We were celebrating the Christmas that followed my sister's engagement to Brad Bonner, who is now a part of our family. They recently got to share some exciting news with the family and Mammy....THEY're GOING TO HAVE A BABY!!!! This family just keep growing!

This picture was taken as I was reading my birthday card from Mammy. I can't even think of a birthday without anticipating getting Mammy and Pappy's present. She always carefully selects the card. She may not know it, but there is always an important message in there that I need to hear. Not to mention, they know just what to get me...money! She always said "We give you money because we want to make sure you get EXACTLY what you want."